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I lovvve your writing style and I’m definitely going to check out Zadie Smith and if you ever decide to write, count me as your first reader!!

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Thank you so much!!

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I can relate to so many things here. But first, how could I missed Zadie! I have the issue to say I’m a writer as well and I think is because I haven’t professionally published a piece even though I write everyday. So I feel like a joke, if i introduce myself as a writer. Also, I have social anxiety but I like going alone to place. 😆

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It’s literally so hard to deal with internally!! But fck it I am a writer! And ahhh I’m sad u missed Zadie!! I know I end up enjoying going alone usually I just forget! lol

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It's heartening to hear how the event left you feeling hopeful and inspired, especially during a time when you've been grappling with feelings of loneliness and defeat.

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Thank you!!

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Bri, I KNOW what it feels like when someone asks what do you do. What is the intention behind this question in the post-capitalist age? Is it a trick question? I do the "haha" too. Often I just ramble and won't even say the word writer and reply with a "nothing basically, I read" and that's something.

Excellent writing as always. XO

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Ughhh isn’t it the worst!?! But thank you for reading!!

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your “casual” tone is simultaneously introspective 👏🏼

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It is so interesting - I have been having a conversation on this topic with my friend just yesterday. About this one in particular " Are we only something if we gain monetary value from it?"

And then I came across your essay. I see it's more than a year since you've written that post, I wonder if you've been able to overcome the discomfort you've described and move on.

It's almost like making money gives you some validity, some sort of social recognition, that what you are doing is good and necessary. It can be so, but then I also think - what about the so called Bullshit Jobs? (I've worked one). What about being a mother - an immense work 24/7 for years in a row, without any monetary gains, only losses (if we view solely from the capitalist perspective).

Just like you, I struggle with calling myself an artist and a writer, even to myself.

But, why are you writing? Why do you continue writing, even if you don't earn (much) money? Probably because you cannot do otherwise. Probably because you see value in the act of writing and creation itself, and monetary support is a nice bonus, but what you are doing is super valuable on its own.

I don't know you, it's the first article of yours that I've came across, by chance, but I wish you all the best with your writing! Your writing is good!

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